I swear to you I have been a plus size chic my ENTIRE life. I have been brown skinned my entire life. I have had normal ass black folks hair my entire life. I mean yeah I work on loosing weight, but it is called a weight problem. The shit may happen or it may not. I'm honestly not that pressed or depressed about it. I was never one of those fat kids who cried b/c they never had friends, or never wanted to get in the pool b/c they didnt want to wear a bathing suite in front of people, or was ashamed to eat in front of their friends. Given I am a sarcastic ass, but I do me. I would be a sarcastic ass if I was a stereotypical bomb shell with an IQ of 170 and 50 Million in the bank, my family would not have it any other way. The only things I say I cant do right now would have to do with running marathons and certain gym activities. 
Now, I know I am not a show stopper, but I am a pretty fly chica. My hair is decent pressed or natural, nails clean, skin clear, glasses fly, makeup cute, clothes fashionable. I know I am not every guys type physically, I'm not most guys type physically. Every guy isnt mine either, but after you get to know someone looks become a lil less important... in my book at least. I have always seen the physical differences in people, I think anyone who says they dont is a lier. However, I have never equated common differences with people as positives and negatives.
The Point. I NEVER knew my looks were so unsatisfying that the way I do carry myself combined with my inner beauty has not been good enough thus far to experience one decent relationship. This combined with the fact that I NEVER in my 25 years did I EVER think that my male friends, the ones I tell all my most private thoughts to. The ones who offer that great male perspective. The ones whose friendships have grown to the point of being damn near family. The guys who are their to pick me up after some jerk plays my heart b/c of my physical traits ( the majority of the time) or what ever ..... ..... .... .... would EVER not want to wife you up for the same reasons these other guys havent. I'm plus sized, brown skinned, with regular ass black hair! SO WHAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So now, I have to think back to all those days they offered a shoulder to lean on and think.... YOU think the same shit! They are not as spiritual and open minded as they project themselves to be. Then, if you point it out it is just my mindset and my views on things... WTF. I cant make this shit up. It's like they want you to say or admit that you have low self esteem and are depressed over it and that's why you havent found someone. I dont have low self esteem. I'm not depressed over my weight. How about I have standards like any other female should have.I just needed a moment to vent b/c for one of the 1st times in 25 years I realize. YOU ALL ARE THE ONES THAT CARE ABOUT IT MORE THAN I EVER HAVE!!!!!!!!!!!!! So, do me a favor! Stop describing the chic/s you are looking for who have all of my family values, morals, education, educational goals, accomplishments and style except in a girl who is thinner, taller, lighter and with longer hair. Or shorter a bit darker with a buffy booty. And tell me about it. Oh I like her, she reminds me of you....(I'm throwing up in my mouth now) Please! You sound lame.
DeeSays: Sorry For taking hella long with Dee Says but uhh... maybe try throwing up on him and him instead so he can really feel you.
just my thoughts.
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